No, I’ve not died. Nor have I forsaken blogging for some other random hobby. I’ve just been swamped. So, since I started working full time about four months ago, I’ve been sick three times. So, when I get over what ever illness has most recently attacked me, I have a TON of stuff to catch up on, essential items like laundry, grocery shopping, house cleaning. So, things like giving myself pedicures and blogging have gone the way of the dodo bird.
I’m trying to figure out how to have a life outside of work. The problem is my work schedule. I’ve got an adjusted shift, which I asked for and am really glad I have, but it’s a problem too. I work from 10:00 a.m. to 5:00 p.m. then I have to work 2.5 more hours telecommute sometime before the next work day. I’m doing it this way so that we don’t have to wake the kids up at 5:00 a.m. to get them to the baby sitters in time for me to get to work at 7:00, like I did before I had kids, plus that gives me the morning with them. I can make sure they are feeling okay and have a normal morning like we did before I started working. We really feel that this is better for the kids then the alternative at this point. Husband picks them up around 5:00 p.m. and I get home about 5:45. Then it’s dinner and baths and spend a little time holding kids, then I work again and when I’m done, head to bed.
The problem with this is that I’m always thinking about work. In the morning I’m thinking about work because I’m getting ready for it. At work I think about work, then when I get home I’m thinking about what I have to get done when I work after the kids are in bed, then I actually do that work. And to top that all off, I often (almost every night) dream about work because it was the last thing I did before going to bed. Frankly, it’s driving me insane.
The other problem I have is that I’m a work-a-holic. When I’m at work I have a tendency to work through when I should be taking breaks or lunch. I work way to hard for the salary they pay me. Anyway, I’m trying to figure out how to change my habits, and my thoughts, so that when I’m not at work, I’m not thinking about work. And when I’m at work, I take the breaks that are legally required.
I’m a little frustrated with myself today. I’m not perfect. I’m tired of having questions and not knowing how to do everything. It’s a little unrealistic for my fifth day doing new stuff, but that’s how I’m feeling today. Part of my problem is that I’ve done the same thing for the last four years and I’ve not used to not knowing everything their is to know. The other problem is I don’t usually make typo’s that I don’t know about as I type them, and for some reason I’m doing that a lot today. Anyway, I’m annoyed with myself.
Maybe I’ll wake up tomorrow and be perfect.
Today I’ve been training on the new stuff that has been added to my job. It’s been pretty easy, even though the software for doing it is really quite stupid. After just entering one small stack of stuff I don’t really need the notes anymore. I’m sure I’ll have to review them again tomorrow to do everything, but still, I like feeling like I understand.
It’s not that I don’t like my job, or that it’s hard, or that I don’t like the people I work with.
I do like my job, it’s actually quite easy for me, and the people I work with, are for the most part, quite nice.
But I HATE being away from my kids.
Well, that’s all I have time for today…need to sleep, have to get up really early tomorrow!
Last night was my once yearly trifecta day for work. It’s the one day a year where the Month, Quarter, and the Fiscal Year all end on the same day, and there by, all the reports for all three of those events must be run. The only way it could have been more work is if it fell on a Monday, as Mondays have their own set of reports. It made for a really late night and a lot more work the next few nights.
Do you have a trifecta day? One day where EVERYTHING falls at once?
I started back to work on Monday. It’s weird having to work again. It’s surprising how quickly one can get used to NOT doing something.
Today was employee satisfaction survey day. As I telecommute, I take my survey over the phone. Their is one section where you get to do comments rather then just answering questions. That’s my favorite part. Although I know realistically nothings is really going to come of my suggestions or complaints, it’s nice to feel like my feedback is taken seriously (and even heard at all) by people other then just my direct manager. Theoretically the county manager actually reads them…I wonder if he really does…hum…
I have talked several times about my love (and sometimes frustration about, but mostly LOVE) being a full time, stay at home Mom. But I don’t think I’ve mentioned that I have another job too. I work part time, from home.
Although I enjoy the mental stimulation that comes from the work I do, sometimes I wish it would all go away (Sorry Boss). I feel this way particularly when my job is taking time away from my family. Like last night for example. I had some work to do that I thought would take me an hour. I always try to work when the girls I sleeping, but that means that I’m missing spending some alone time with Husband. When I ran into a few bumps it turned out being 9:58 p.m. before I was at a stopping point. Most of my evening with Husband gone.
It’s times like that when I try to remind myself of the long term reasons I took this job when Peanut was born…sometimes they seem too long term to make up for the current loss in family time. Now if the girls would just nap at the same time, problem solved.
What work, Mom related or other wise, do you feel takes you away from more important (or stuff you just would rather be doing) things?